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Being a Born Again Christian means just that. Being BORN AGAIN. Another chance, a renewing of one’s self inside and out. I was a Christian before, a Catholic Christian, believing in God and Jesus Christ, the Blessed Mother and all the saints too.

It’s not the same as being a BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN.  I now only pray to Jesus, God  and talk with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit that’s inside of me. The one and only Holy Trinity.

John 14:Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

So through Jesus it is. It took awhile to dispel all the religious legalism I had learned through my life. But I am a willing student. I wanted what Jesus had to offer. The goodness, mercy, peace, and most of all forgiveness. Like a little girl I ran to Him. I wanted it all. I got it. It was a slow road, retraining my mouth, my thoughts and my actions but it was well worth it. Here are some of my thoughts about this journey that I’m on.

I used to curse, smoke, drink, do light drugs, talk about people, I was jealous, envious, lustful, and  I was also sad, alone, unhealthy and isolated from whatever good was out there and never feeling good enough, never knowing real love, I felt alone, distant, confused, distrustful and angry. My life was so unfair, I  felt the dread the overbearing dread. It felt heavy, it was like a dragging weight. Constantly pulling at me. I wanted to escape.

I wanted to be saved by my white knight. I used to say that all the time and add, yeah, it’s probably the Ajax white knight so he can clean up my act, I think I mentioned it in a previous post. There was a TV commercial about Ajax back in my day with a shining knight on a white horse. I guess it stuck in my head, (sigh) another fantasy. I wanted a better life, that life was not the life that I planned on. I used to think June Cleaver, a TV fantasy mother (Leave it to Beaver TV Show) was the perfect mother, wife, homemaker, etc. She also wasn’t real but TV made her look as if we all wanted to be like her. One of my early idols, not including Elvis.  I had a great fantasy life, what an imagination!

I worked hard before I was saved trying to straighten my life out, but I couldn’t keep up. Talk about running around in circles. I was prime pickings for dark thoughts, the whispers in my own head. I began to spiral. I was in my little pity party again planning my escape.

I made a mess, I made so many mistakes, I sinned, I lusted, I envied, I was jealous,  often negative about many things. It was just a matter of time. Like smoking cigarettes ( which I no longer do) we think of the consequences happening down the road. Not realizing it’s really a short road we’re all on.

I fell down and did’t even realize it. Thinking that because I  went to church every Sunday and celebrated the church holidays that it was enough. It wasn’t. I also celebrated Halloween and Easter at that time too.

Geez, I was confused. Receiving Holy Communion and worshiping pagan idols and pagan holidays. What was I thinking?

I was confused and living in a growing fogginess of confusion. There were times I couldn’t even make good decisions or the right ones. It had become so bad at one point that I just more or less flipped a coin, pick one decision and live with it, I said to myself. Take the consequences as they come. Russian roulette with my life. My Spiritual life. What was I thinking?

Today I am so much better, much more of a real person. The person I always wanted to be. I made a lot of mistakes, wrong turns. It has been a long road back to where I’m supposed to be. I don’t curse anymore, or drink like I used to.

It’s funny but I hardly remember that other person. I had been saved and changed and reborn. I think the term regenerated is more like it. I am not the person I used to be, I am so much more.

Like Saul I had a radical change. I knew all the right things I was supposed to be but I had them tainted by the darkness. I’m freer than I have ever been in my life. I’m clean and clear in mind, heart, body and soul. Hopefully, God willing I am a better person now. I look forward to being an even better person.

I want my joy, my change in me to show outwardly not just inwardly. I have some physical issues I deal with that slow down that smile I have inside bursting to come out. But I still have my spontaneous laughter. Sometimes I just crack myself up.

I have many people that pray for me and I also pray for them. The difference it makes in our lives is noticeable. My non Christian friends and some of my family members talk of God now more often, and not in jest. Others are beginning to soften. That’s a good thing because this is a very hard world we live an and we need to be each others friend(neighbor).

We really need to stop being so selfish because we put up walls all around us and in doing so no one can come in or go out. So who is the prisoner? The walls are also around your heart, start slowly, allow yourself to be led by the Lord. Just say over and over, Let go and Let God. It will happen, curses and bondage’s will be broken, some take longer than others. Be persistent, learn everything you can to better yourself the REAL way. From the Good Book, the Bible.

If I need to make a decision nowadays I just ask my Abba Father to help me out. It gets easier each time. I am a child of God why wouldn’t He want to help me. He loves me no matter what. Do I have to learn to behave? Yes I do. I need to stop being sinful and disobedient. Is sin fun? Yes for a short time but you always have to pay the piper (Satan). Just quit acting out and get on with your real life, in Christ. Let go and let God. I am Blessed I am chosen, I am BORN AGAIN!

What about you? Are you free to choose?

 

Here’s a P.S:

I went to an Intensive Weekend in Orlando a few years ago. My very first one. I went with my eyes and my heart open. During one of the services I had a person speak prophetically to me. My eyes were closed in prayer so I didn’t know who she was.

Part of what I was told was that the Savior on the White horse was coming for me. Being silly and skeptical I made the crack about the Ajax what knight coming for me. I thought Jesus was coming to kill me. I didn’t understand what other things she was saying, it was very late so I went upstairs to my hotel room. My roommate wasn’t there yet.

I tossed my Bible on my bed and it slid off and fell pages down opened on the floor. I looked at it for a moment and said out loud, ‘God if there’s something you want me to see let me see it’. I had an odd feeling  as I picked the Bible up carefully from the floor. I searched the two pages for anything that might be meant for me. There it was in the lower left hand corner, 

Revelation 19:11-16English Standard Version (ESV)

The Rider on a White Horse

11 Then I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse! The one sitting on it is called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he judges and makes war. 12 His eyes are like a flame of fire, and on his head are many diadems, and he has a name written that no one knows but himself. 13 He is clothed in a robe dipped in[a] blood, and the name by which he is called is The Word of God. 14 And the armies of heaven, arrayed in fine linen, white and pure, were following him on white horses. 15 From his mouth comes a sharp sword with which to strike down the nations, and he will rule[b] them with a rod of iron. He will tread the winepress of the fury of the wrath of God the Almighty.16 On his robe and on his thigh he has a name written, King of kings and Lord of lords.

The next morning I sought out an explanation because I was becoming fearful of the prophecy spoken over me. Once it was explained to me I told the leader what I thought. She laughed and said it meant that Jesus WANTS me, He was seeking me. He wanted to be more in my life because He loved me. I was chosen.

There was my knight on the White Horse. I am forever thankful and I began a wonderfully fulfilling journey with a brand new life.

Blessings,

Mary

 

 

 

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It’s not easy walking a narrow path. Trying to live like Jesus wants us to live. Trusting Him completely in a distrusting world. Satan always prowling around (1 Peter 5:7-8). Sometimes it’s difficult to make the right decisions about even just the simplest things. It seems like they escalate into something with a life of it’s own.

An avalanche going downhill, a rockslide, a waterfall. Turning into something else entirely when it gets to the bottom. If you look at it negatively, you might think, “wow, a huge powerful mess just wound up here”. Look at it positively and think, ” will you look at how awesome that is, see the new creation, see the might and strength of what that has become.”  

The avalanche has taken the weight off the mountain and moved earth and debris to the base creating new environment for plants and animals.

The rockslide creates new terrain also taking the mountains weight.

The waterfall as powerful as it is moves the earth and whats in the waters path to the bottom, a pool of churning water making its way yet again along and through the earth.

Powerful, dangerous, sometimes deadly events that through unplanned circumstances are transformed into something good or better than before.

The rocks or snow were dangling and really had no use the way they were,  it’s like the earth was shedding them. Shaking them off.

The waterfall couldn’t just end there at the bottom of the pool, it overflowed and spilled out to start again and start anew.

Being Christian is a lot like that. You die to self. When you surrender your life to Jesus, He takes the old and begins to make it new. When you commit yourself to living Christlike many obstacles can come against you. The pressure is on, things begin to happen. New level new devil. The commitment becomes more challenging. Time changes, conversation, habits, and normal routines morph ever so slightly. Friendships move on and slowly new ones are made. A reshaping, a new you. Sometimes you feel oppressed, or depressed but don’t give into it.

Trust God always. Pray to stay on the narrow path because it’s all worth it in the end. Become a new creation, go through the narrow gate ( Matthew 7:14).

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Lately while doing my daily reading of the Word, listening to TV pastors, and also my inner spirit I have been hearing a repetition of encouragements and affirmations.I have been hearing messages of prosperity, wealth, health, restoration and renewal. some examples: Esther 8:2, Genesis 41:41-43,  Dan 2:48, Eccel 2:26, Jeremiah 29:11 (my favorite), Ezekiel 16:53. There are so many Scriptures to back up the blessings offered. I want to be restored, renewed, enjoy increase in my life. I refuse negativity, I embrace the good.

 I  live in a world where being accepted by others is what I once thought  I wanted to be. I thought being and doing what my friends did   was normal. I thought everyone around me was normal. I thought I was not normal so I tried to be “normal” like them . I was in bondage to many things. That’s the right word too, BONDAGE. Thinking I was a free independent person when I was not. Being a slave to money, accepting unacceptable behavior, being a workaholic so that I could attain a certain status or station in my life, being prideful and trying to get by like everyone else was. Doing things I never ever thought I would do. Little by little I was degrading myself, being cut off from what was good and clean and wholesome. I was a wreck, losing my self esteem and self respect. Chipped away little by little. Heavy shoulders, big burdens, ignorant of many things. For all my accomplishments I also kept getting knocked back on my rear. Over and over not knowing why.

I kept thinking God, I’m a good person, why God? Why is this happening? What is it that I’m doing wrong? One thing I did learn through all my trials and tribulations is that God does hear me. I just needed to recognize the answer when it  is presented to me.I had to have my eyes,ears and heart wide open. I had to RECEIVE the answer. It’s like an ah-ha moment. Okay I get it now. It’s not about me. It’s about Him. He’s my father, my Abba, my daddy. Like no father I ever had before. With Him I can do so much more than without Him. 

Thank God that I have been found and saved. Saved from myself, from sin, from Satan. I was a very lost sheep. Faking my way, hoping the next big catastrophic event would not spiral down to the pits of despair, desperation, helplessness and homelessness. I had incredible stress in my life.

It took awhile but  I am so thankful for who, what and where I am in my life. I have had many changes and losses but the  next changes, the good ones, the positive ones, I look forward to.  I have good Christian support systems. I try on a regular basis to do what I’m supposed to do in my  Christian life. Some days are more difficult than others. It’s not easy trying to live as Jesus wants me to live. But through Him all things are possible.

I believe in the messages, the affirmations of wealth, health, prosperity, and restoration. They don’t necessarily mean that I’ll be monetarily rich. I believe they mean that I’ll be a lot better off than I was before, when I was lost.

Blessings, Mary

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  Are YOU looking for a Christian mingle experience?

Do YOU want to VOLUNTEER and be  be part of  something awesome?

DO YOU want to be part of the Winter Jam Tour when it comes to Tampa, Florida?

Pastor Estell is still in need of  VOLUNTEERS to help her.

For more information and to sign up to VOLUNTEER, Pastor Estell can be contacted via email at:

revestell@yahoo.com

Pastor Estell needs volunteers for Winter Jam Tour 2013 coming to Tampa, Florida on January 12, 2013.


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SOS Ministries is putting on a Fashion Show November 3, 2012 to raise money for The Helping Hands Ministry of Calvary Chapel Worship Center. SOS Ministries  ministers to abused women, homeless, the poor, and other needs in our community and would greatly appreciate any kind of donation that  you, your company or group would be able to assist us with. This is a large project but if we work together we will see our area definitely change for the better. Please remember your donation is tax deductible. Thank you so much for your participation.

 

Sponsor Levels:

THE EMMY – $500.00 Donation

3 months of FREE advertising in The Campus Connection 

Early Admission

4 FREE Admission Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

RED CARPET- $300.00 donation

1 month FREE advertising in The Campus Connection

Early Admission

2 FREE Admission Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

THE RUNWAY – $100.00 donation

Early Admission

2 FREE Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

THE STARS ARE OUT – $50.00 donation

Early Admission

2 Free Admission Tickets

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For Further Information Please Contact:

Pastor Estell at 727-457-9928 or revestell@yahoo.com

Sorry to inform you that the “Dessert Social ” at the Daily Transformation Ministry has been cancelled.

It has not been rescheduled.

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The break between Bible study classes was brief since it was  the summer session. I thought the next set of classes at the School of Discipleship, was going to be very interesting, right up my alley so to speak. The first one was The Holy Spirit (Pnematology) Class, immediately followed by Book Of Revelation Part 1 Class. Never realizing how intense they could be right from  the start, I think I overestimated the workload. I decided to get on track asap. My usual routine was to take written notes and sometime during the week, type  them out and place in a binder.Noticing the extent of the notes I realized almost too late that I had to get a typing routine established more quickly. no more “Ms laid back in her homework or class assignments”.

These were two heavy duty studies deep into the biblical meanings of who, what, when , why and where of the Holy Spirit and the Book of Revelation. Lots of research, which I love, and answers to my many questions. Pastors Mary Kiegel and  Estell Keshock are awesome teachers. Making the Bible come alive. My brain visualizes descriptors and along with my imagination I can picture how it all was and see what will be coming according to His word. I can tell you that studying and reading up on Revelation is kind of a scary thing for such a visual type person as myself. I was actually drawing sketches of each Scripture and Word. Have you ever done that? When I looked back at the drawings, as simple as  they were since I am not artistic , Revelation had a whole new meaning to me.

I thought the first part was scary regarding  the seven churches, the seven seals, the Trumpets, the Angels and the locusts  were terrifying. Scary bugs, omigosh. Bugs from Hell, Demon bugs, ugh! That was only the first part of the Lords Wrath also known as  the FIRST WOE (Rev 1-9:11)! Geez Louise! If you can’t figure out at that time that it’s going to get worse I don’t know what to say to you. It gets MUCH WORSE(Rev 9:12-18)! Even so people don’t repent. What’s with that? It goes on again describing God’s Wrath getting Much Much  worse. Are you kidding, people are still not believing and repenting? I guess they are waiting until the very end to see if it’s for real or not.

Satan being the Great Deceiver he is, many will be corrupted, captured, corralled, cajoled, blinded, and well, deceived. By the time Rev 19 rolls around the world is in for quite a surprise.

But is it really? Hasn’t the Bible been faithfully telling us all what will happen in End Times? Have we been faithfully reading the Bible? Do you know that it is still to this day the best selling book in the world? I think we need to take it off the shelf  and get into a daily routine of reading it.

As for my classes I will be a diligent student and try to be a good Christian, doing what Jesus wants me to do. I might not always like it but He is my Abba  Father and I will be obedient to Him. I surely don’t want to be around for all  this nasty stuff coming, I prefer to be in Heaven, not in Hell or the Hell earth is going to become.where do you want to be?

Pick an H, Heaven or Hell!

Thanks Pastor Estell for  the use of your slogan.

Blessings, Mary

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  Sunday I was doubly blessed to be able to attend two great worship services. The firstone at Calvary Chapel Worship Center, my regular church. The second one at The Daily Transformation Ministry where we had our Tea Party and also where we’re having a “Soaking Service” in ten days. That’s going to be awesome. A lot of people are really excited about that.

Pastor Strayer at Calvary Chapel Worship Center  always gives great sermons, awesome teachings. The kind that hit home. I’m sure many people were convicted in his teachings.

After the service at CCWC  I went over to hear Marisol preach at the Daily Transformation Ministry. Wow, it was getting hot in there. You could feel the Holy Spirit move through the place. Her husband Todd was doing the Praise and Worship and it was awesome. I discovered that he actually wrote some of the songs. What a gift!  The anointing was all over the place. I felt blessed to have the opportunity to witness to all the wonderful teachings and anointings. God is certainly moving in  these churches. After the Service, lucky for me it was Agape Sunday again! Who hoo. The food was wonderful and the fellowship was terrific as always. I am looking forward to the  fellowship and worship in the future at this very special church.

Don’t forget to come see all of us on Friday, July13, 2012 at 7 pm for the “Soaking in the  Holy Spirit Fountain  of  Fire and Healing.” at the Daily Transformation Ministry. Look for the links to their Facebook pages in my link section.

 

 

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 Pastor Estell is having a service at The Daily Transformation Ministry on July 13, 2012. It will be a “Soaking in the Holy Spirit Fountain of Fire and Healing” ministry service. Thank you Pastor Freddy and the parishoner’s  of The Daily Transformation Ministry for having this service in your church. See link section for address and website of the church.

I have been listening everyday to the music from the website http://www.soakingwithapurpose.com. Wonderfully relaxing and fulfilling spiritual music. Please feel free to check out the site. If you know of other sites please let me know so I may share them on this blog.

I am anticipating going to this special service. I am believing it’s just what I need to fill me or re-fill me with the Holy Spirit.  I just want to seek more of Him.

A description of soaking was borrowed from the soakingwithapurpose.com website:” soaking is an intimate time where we place ourselves in a posture of rest in the Lord’s presence while listening to anointed music created to impart to our spirit and bypass our mind.”  What a beautiful way to describe it. To also have Healing along with the Fire of the Holy Spirit sounds like it’s going to be a powerful service indeed! I am so looking forward to it.

I think I will get there early enough to get a parking spot. Sounds like it’s going to be a full house, awesome.

P.S. The address for The Daily Transformation Ministry is 7425 Orchid Lake Rd., New Port Richey, Florida.

 

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 Pastor Estell was a guest pastor today at Pastor Freddys church The Daily Transformation Ministry  at 7425 Orchid Lake Rd., New Port Richey. She spoke  of Love and “how it is not self serving, nor forced. Love is forgiveness. It’s a choice,  and starting today let’s make better choices.” To also have “a zeal for the Lord. If we can be excited over sports or someone’s accomplishments why can’t we also be “excited and have zeal for the Lord?” We need to walk in Love towards our enemies.

Pastor Estell taught us the Five Languages of Love. First, words of affirmation, second, quality time, third, receiving gifts, fourth, acts of service and fifth is physical touch. We all have one or more of these love languages that speak to us. Which ones are yours? Which are your spouses, mother, father, childrens , neighbors, friends, clerks, you get the picture. Powerful teaching and preaching on Love.

Pastor Freddy also spoke of Love and the heart and how God is still working in your life. How God uses the “stuff” in your life to bring about good. “When you don’t see external growth God is working on your root system.”  The only thing that remains is Faith, Hope and Love. They are everlasting. Good teaching. Wow, that hit home with me for sure what about you. I got the Word God, thanks. During Communion we learned to receive with honor and forgiveness. To ask God to help us release forgiveness, guilt, and  pain. To Believe that God is working in our life. Very touching, brought tears to my eyes.

Today was also AGAPE Sunday at The Daily Transformation Ministry. That meant fellowship and food. Lots and lots of each. What a wonderful post worship service. Kudos to the church ladies and leaders. The food was plentiful and delicious. I love to see the unity of people working together to get things done. Thank you all for such a wonderful service.

Blessings, Mary

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