Category: Faith


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It’s not easy walking a narrow path. Trying to live like Jesus wants us to live. Trusting Him completely in a distrusting world. Satan always prowling around (1 Peter 5:7-8). Sometimes it’s difficult to make the right decisions about even just the simplest things. It seems like they escalate into something with a life of it’s own.

An avalanche going downhill, a rockslide, a waterfall. Turning into something else entirely when it gets to the bottom. If you look at it negatively, you might think, “wow, a huge powerful mess just wound up here”. Look at it positively and think, ” will you look at how awesome that is, see the new creation, see the might and strength of what that has become.”  

The avalanche has taken the weight off the mountain and moved earth and debris to the base creating new environment for plants and animals.

The rockslide creates new terrain also taking the mountains weight.

The waterfall as powerful as it is moves the earth and whats in the waters path to the bottom, a pool of churning water making its way yet again along and through the earth.

Powerful, dangerous, sometimes deadly events that through unplanned circumstances are transformed into something good or better than before.

The rocks or snow were dangling and really had no use the way they were,  it’s like the earth was shedding them. Shaking them off.

The waterfall couldn’t just end there at the bottom of the pool, it overflowed and spilled out to start again and start anew.

Being Christian is a lot like that. You die to self. When you surrender your life to Jesus, He takes the old and begins to make it new. When you commit yourself to living Christlike many obstacles can come against you. The pressure is on, things begin to happen. New level new devil. The commitment becomes more challenging. Time changes, conversation, habits, and normal routines morph ever so slightly. Friendships move on and slowly new ones are made. A reshaping, a new you. Sometimes you feel oppressed, or depressed but don’t give into it.

Trust God always. Pray to stay on the narrow path because it’s all worth it in the end. Become a new creation, go through the narrow gate ( Matthew 7:14).

ImageLately I’ve been wondering about a lot of things. I guess that I’ve been getting hungry again.

Three years ago I was saved. I lived in Florida at the time and had many Christian friends and contacts.

Moving to New York I needed to begin again. I found a great church right away, praise the Lord.

Then after awhile I felt a gnawing, a space, a void. I used to be so involved in bible studies, church and various types of worship, fellowshipping, and being a part of several different  things. I found different places to go and discovered  more about myself and my relationship with God.

Now  I don’t have all that contact and I’m more of a lone explorer, except for the occasional blessing of finding a few other ” explorers” like myself, I am wandering again.

Looking for my Jesus fix. That’s also what Joyce Meyer calls it. Being addicted to Jesus. I just have to have what He has. I keep looking for my teacher. I keep listening for the still small voice. I feel the need.

So I begin searching for my teacher. Asking others about more.

More praise and worship, inspirational preaching, restorative instruction, deeper and deeper I feel the need to go.

I’ve been to two new churches. Awesome places of worship. Full Gospel Christian Center in Port Jefferson Station, NY and The Refuge Church in Northport, NY are wonderful examples of feeding my need.

Full Gospel Christian Center is charismatic, has altar calls, flag and dance ministries, friendly parishioners, terrific praise and worship ministry, and the pastors are so anointed. When I was there many people went up for the altar call and where anointed  with oil and prayed prayed over by the pastors. Talk about a Holy Spirit movement. It was so amazing, two and a half hours long. Wow. I felt great after that.

The same people that told me of that church asked me if I wanted to go to a healing service. We did that a couple of weeks later.

We went to The Refuge Church in Northport. Friday and Saturday night and Sunday service. The praise and worship music was wonderful here also. Everything here was great. The pastor had such a great connection with his congregation.

What I found inspiring was the amount of young people so devoted to Jesus. There were more young than old. Hallelujah. There also was flag and dance ministries.  

They had special guests,there were two healers there from Bethel Church in Redding, California. The miracles that took place that weekend were simply fantastic. One young woman had her Scoliosis healed and grew an inch. I myself had my back and my right knee prayed  over. I actually felt and had visualized my one disc being pulled and moved. It took a few days before I realized the knot behind my right knee was gone. I can say that I partial healing but I will TESTIFY to what happened to me while I was there. A man had a rash on his leg that completely disappeared. There were others also.

My advice is for you to go yourself to a healing service. Bring your Faith and Belief.

As for me, I’m looking for more, so if you happen to see me when I’m questing let me tell you about about my adventures with Jesus.

Blessings,

Mary  

PS: See links section for website addresses.

Pastor  Estell is preaching again at Daily Transformation Ministries. I love that church. Pastor Freddy and the parishioners are so friendly and giving. It’s a comfortable place also. Make sure  to get there a little earlier to get the seats of your choice. 

Great  praise and worship music, comfortable atmosphere, awesome preaching, easy to get to, great location, friendly and inspirational. What more can I say?  You’ll just have to go there to see for yourselves.

Where:

Daily Transformation Ministries

7425 Orchid Lake Rd.

New Port Richey, Florida,

34653

When: June 30, 2013  at 10 a.m.

Save the Date and yourselves. Praise the Lord.

 

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 It’s been a long time since my last post. I have had a lot of changes going on. Good changes, God inspired changes. Sometimes difficult changes. Mostly it’s about giving up self control and realizing I am only fooling myself when I think I can manage on my own without trusting God to take care of all my needs. And that includes friendships.

 Besides holiday cards, I also like to send out a note  to all of my friends. I want them to know how much I appreciate them and am so thankful for their friendships. I also try to keep up via phone calls. I’m not a big fan of texting, it’s so impersonal.  

I always thought getting personal snail mail was important. To be honest I even like getting junk mail. It tells me, “hey the world recognizes you’re alive and  living at this place”. Sometimes I even get a bonus gift or awesome coupon or notice of an upcoming event. It’s part of being more than a microscopic dot in a big atomic pool of life. There is so much going on in this wonderful life of ours everyone wants to be acknowledged for their existence.

I connected again with some friends that have been very busy in their lives. Busy with family and school and work.  And I reconnected with others that have been out of touch with me for awhile. It’s so good and healthy to reach out to one another.

Some have created new things in their lives. God related things. An example of this is my friend Lori. Lori and I have known each other through church and bible study groups and related events. She and I both have a heart for the Lord and for the homeless. I’m presently helping a group in my church here in NY.

Lori tells me she has started a church in Clearwater, Florida. She  also has a homeless ministry  and a dance ministry that she’s deeply involved in. She’s on Facebook if you want to check out her ministries.

The Dance Ministry is called “Hearts on Fire Ministry”, they’re awesome in their Praise and Worship of the Lord Jesus. I took this from her “about” page:

Freedom in Praise and Worship to Glorify God with The Creative Arts
Mission

Extravagant Praise and Worship Expressed in The Creative Arts

Description

Hearts On Fire Ministry is under the covering of Calvary Chapel Worship Center, in New Port Richey, Florida. We are a missions outreach ministry to promote the Gospel of Jesus Christ through the Creative Arts: Expressive Sign Language, Dance, Mime, Music, Drama, ETC…

This is a recent post of Revelation Song it’s really very nicely done. Please view it and share it with others. Good things need to be shared and promoted.
Lori is very dedicated to the Lord and  her ministries and I am so glad and proud to have her as a friend. May blessings follow you and the good work you do. Links can be found within this post or to the right.
Hearts on Fire Dance Ministry comes under the covering of Calvary Chapel Worship Center in New Port Richey Florida. What an awesome place of worship it is.
Stop by there on Thursday nights or Sundays for a fulfilling Holy Spirit worship experience.

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Lately while doing my daily reading of the Word, listening to TV pastors, and also my inner spirit I have been hearing a repetition of encouragements and affirmations.I have been hearing messages of prosperity, wealth, health, restoration and renewal. some examples: Esther 8:2, Genesis 41:41-43,  Dan 2:48, Eccel 2:26, Jeremiah 29:11 (my favorite), Ezekiel 16:53. There are so many Scriptures to back up the blessings offered. I want to be restored, renewed, enjoy increase in my life. I refuse negativity, I embrace the good.

 I  live in a world where being accepted by others is what I once thought  I wanted to be. I thought being and doing what my friends did   was normal. I thought everyone around me was normal. I thought I was not normal so I tried to be “normal” like them . I was in bondage to many things. That’s the right word too, BONDAGE. Thinking I was a free independent person when I was not. Being a slave to money, accepting unacceptable behavior, being a workaholic so that I could attain a certain status or station in my life, being prideful and trying to get by like everyone else was. Doing things I never ever thought I would do. Little by little I was degrading myself, being cut off from what was good and clean and wholesome. I was a wreck, losing my self esteem and self respect. Chipped away little by little. Heavy shoulders, big burdens, ignorant of many things. For all my accomplishments I also kept getting knocked back on my rear. Over and over not knowing why.

I kept thinking God, I’m a good person, why God? Why is this happening? What is it that I’m doing wrong? One thing I did learn through all my trials and tribulations is that God does hear me. I just needed to recognize the answer when it  is presented to me.I had to have my eyes,ears and heart wide open. I had to RECEIVE the answer. It’s like an ah-ha moment. Okay I get it now. It’s not about me. It’s about Him. He’s my father, my Abba, my daddy. Like no father I ever had before. With Him I can do so much more than without Him. 

Thank God that I have been found and saved. Saved from myself, from sin, from Satan. I was a very lost sheep. Faking my way, hoping the next big catastrophic event would not spiral down to the pits of despair, desperation, helplessness and homelessness. I had incredible stress in my life.

It took awhile but  I am so thankful for who, what and where I am in my life. I have had many changes and losses but the  next changes, the good ones, the positive ones, I look forward to.  I have good Christian support systems. I try on a regular basis to do what I’m supposed to do in my  Christian life. Some days are more difficult than others. It’s not easy trying to live as Jesus wants me to live. But through Him all things are possible.

I believe in the messages, the affirmations of wealth, health, prosperity, and restoration. They don’t necessarily mean that I’ll be monetarily rich. I believe they mean that I’ll be a lot better off than I was before, when I was lost.

Blessings, Mary

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My life has gone through many changes. In the past few years, some very dramatic and renewing life changing events. It was when I lost everything that I actually found so much more than what I lost.

I was a hospice nurse. I loved my patients, the families, and my job. For me, I was a  career hospice nurse ,and I loved it. It brought me much satisfaction in my inner self. I learned so much about people, compassion, families, family dynamics, pain and suffering, and most of all Spirituality. I was comfortable in knowing I did my job well. I took good care of my patients. I was committed to making them as comfortable as possible.

I have learned so much from my patients and their families. I am so very grateful for the privilege of caring for them.

When I first began caring for hospice patients I prayed often. For them and their families and also for myself. I asked God to help me be a good nurse and to be what He wanted me to be.

I prayed quietly to myself at the bedside of the dying. I prayed in my car, at home, in church wherever I was. I asked for understanding. When I had questions I prayed for answers. He ALWAYS delivered the answers to me in an “ah ha ” kind of way. I saw the answers right there,  right at that moment. It was always “wow, I can see what you mean”.

Somehow I began losing sight of Him. Oh I went to church, I still prayed, I was still a good nurse but slowly I got caught up in the world. The world of taking care of myself. Of making a living, taking care of my house, truck, pets and yard, paying my credit cards and household bills, the list goes on . I coveted things, I actually  worshiped  idols. The idols of capitalism. Don’t misunderstand me. I enjoyed shopping, hunting down things. Even though it was mainly thrift  and discount stores. Owning second hand items didn’t bother me. But putting work, the house, yard and material items before God is a big no-no. God is a jealous God. Even though they were not golden calves or statues of other gods, I put them first.

I still helped people though. I enjoy helping others. Helping others is a big part of my life. I feel it’s something I’m supposed to do. Not realizing I also needed help.

 Being blindsided. I thought, “I want to be like everyone else, a good citizen, have a good credit score, my own home etc”.

I didn’t realize at the time that it was okay to be me.Where I was in life, it was alright, hard working, dedicated, aspiring, alone but not lonely, always trying to do the right thing. I kept myself busy, not afraid to take little adventures. Go places near and far by myself. I learned not to depend on others for my happiness.

As much as I wanted to be like others I was deep down glad I was not. I never realized how much I was putting on myself. Proud of my INDEPENDENCE. I can fix almost anything. I can work more, I can do this, I can do that. Being independent I thought was a good thing. Actually it alienates people. Others think you never need help with anything so they stop asking you. They get put off by your independence, thinking you can do so much more for yourself you don’t need anyone.

Actually, I find that my  independence came from loss. No help to do things, to help get stuff done, to go places with, no one had time to comfort or console, to bounce ideas off of, or to share with. I became stronger in my resolve that I didn’t need anyone, I can do it. I became more independent. A cycle round and round. All the while praying to God,asking and asking so many questions.  Looking for why me, why not, how come?

Then my life changed. I got hurt at work. Went through all the required rehabs, surgeries, rehab again, insurance and job requirements.  Ultimately due to “economic forecasters” ( my terms) I and 26 other people, mostly nurses and home health aides were laid off.  Oh my gosh what a disaster! My life passed before me at the speed of light. What about my home, my credit, my, my, my. All about me. To make a very long ( 5 year or so) story short, I lost my career, my home, my physical self and wound up with a physical disability from my injuries, and severe arthritis from long years of hard  work. But yet I still wanted to go back and continue what I was doing just as before.

I had to accept my many losses. It was hard to do. I grieved often, prayed often and hoped for answers. I dealt with my grief, yes I grieved. I went through the grief process for each of my losses. I had to change.  I did that with God’s help. He put wonderful people in my path along this very painful journey. I became a born again Christian. I saw that God was always there, I had to get ME out of the way. I prayed the confusion to be cleared and I that I would have wisdom and healing. I have been fast tracking, hungry for the Lord. I realize my thinking before was corrupted by worldly things. I understand now what principalities are. I know I am a warrior bride for Christ. I have purpose and meaning in my life. I am into the Word first thing every morning. I get up earlier to do that. I verbalize my praise and thanks all day long. What I gained is so much more empowering. Life affirming. The veil is lifted.

I am on the biggest adventure yet! I don’t have to just survive or try to be like the other fish in the fishbowl. I trust in God, He will provide for me, He directs my steps. I am not alone, my eyes and heart are open.  I am on an awesome journey. A marvelous adventure! And I just love new adventures!

Blessings, Mary

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SOS Ministries is putting on a Fashion Show November 3, 2012 to raise money for The Helping Hands Ministry of Calvary Chapel Worship Center. SOS Ministries  ministers to abused women, homeless, the poor, and other needs in our community and would greatly appreciate any kind of donation that  you, your company or group would be able to assist us with. This is a large project but if we work together we will see our area definitely change for the better. Please remember your donation is tax deductible. Thank you so much for your participation.

 

Sponsor Levels:

THE EMMY – $500.00 Donation

3 months of FREE advertising in The Campus Connection 

Early Admission

4 FREE Admission Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

RED CARPET- $300.00 donation

1 month FREE advertising in The Campus Connection

Early Admission

2 FREE Admission Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

THE RUNWAY – $100.00 donation

Early Admission

2 FREE Tickets

2 Reserved Front Row Seats

2 Specialty Drinks

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

THE STARS ARE OUT – $50.00 donation

Early Admission

2 Free Admission Tickets

Name of Business in Fashion Show Program

For Further Information Please Contact:

Pastor Estell at 727-457-9928 or revestell@yahoo.com

Sorry to inform you that the “Dessert Social ” at the Daily Transformation Ministry has been cancelled.

It has not been rescheduled.

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The break between Bible study classes was brief since it was  the summer session. I thought the next set of classes at the School of Discipleship, was going to be very interesting, right up my alley so to speak. The first one was The Holy Spirit (Pnematology) Class, immediately followed by Book Of Revelation Part 1 Class. Never realizing how intense they could be right from  the start, I think I overestimated the workload. I decided to get on track asap. My usual routine was to take written notes and sometime during the week, type  them out and place in a binder.Noticing the extent of the notes I realized almost too late that I had to get a typing routine established more quickly. no more “Ms laid back in her homework or class assignments”.

These were two heavy duty studies deep into the biblical meanings of who, what, when , why and where of the Holy Spirit and the Book of Revelation. Lots of research, which I love, and answers to my many questions. Pastors Mary Kiegel and  Estell Keshock are awesome teachers. Making the Bible come alive. My brain visualizes descriptors and along with my imagination I can picture how it all was and see what will be coming according to His word. I can tell you that studying and reading up on Revelation is kind of a scary thing for such a visual type person as myself. I was actually drawing sketches of each Scripture and Word. Have you ever done that? When I looked back at the drawings, as simple as  they were since I am not artistic , Revelation had a whole new meaning to me.

I thought the first part was scary regarding  the seven churches, the seven seals, the Trumpets, the Angels and the locusts  were terrifying. Scary bugs, omigosh. Bugs from Hell, Demon bugs, ugh! That was only the first part of the Lords Wrath also known as  the FIRST WOE (Rev 1-9:11)! Geez Louise! If you can’t figure out at that time that it’s going to get worse I don’t know what to say to you. It gets MUCH WORSE(Rev 9:12-18)! Even so people don’t repent. What’s with that? It goes on again describing God’s Wrath getting Much Much  worse. Are you kidding, people are still not believing and repenting? I guess they are waiting until the very end to see if it’s for real or not.

Satan being the Great Deceiver he is, many will be corrupted, captured, corralled, cajoled, blinded, and well, deceived. By the time Rev 19 rolls around the world is in for quite a surprise.

But is it really? Hasn’t the Bible been faithfully telling us all what will happen in End Times? Have we been faithfully reading the Bible? Do you know that it is still to this day the best selling book in the world? I think we need to take it off the shelf  and get into a daily routine of reading it.

As for my classes I will be a diligent student and try to be a good Christian, doing what Jesus wants me to do. I might not always like it but He is my Abba  Father and I will be obedient to Him. I surely don’t want to be around for all  this nasty stuff coming, I prefer to be in Heaven, not in Hell or the Hell earth is going to become.where do you want to be?

Pick an H, Heaven or Hell!

Thanks Pastor Estell for  the use of your slogan.

Blessings, Mary

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  Sunday I was doubly blessed to be able to attend two great worship services. The firstone at Calvary Chapel Worship Center, my regular church. The second one at The Daily Transformation Ministry where we had our Tea Party and also where we’re having a “Soaking Service” in ten days. That’s going to be awesome. A lot of people are really excited about that.

Pastor Strayer at Calvary Chapel Worship Center  always gives great sermons, awesome teachings. The kind that hit home. I’m sure many people were convicted in his teachings.

After the service at CCWC  I went over to hear Marisol preach at the Daily Transformation Ministry. Wow, it was getting hot in there. You could feel the Holy Spirit move through the place. Her husband Todd was doing the Praise and Worship and it was awesome. I discovered that he actually wrote some of the songs. What a gift!  The anointing was all over the place. I felt blessed to have the opportunity to witness to all the wonderful teachings and anointings. God is certainly moving in  these churches. After the Service, lucky for me it was Agape Sunday again! Who hoo. The food was wonderful and the fellowship was terrific as always. I am looking forward to the  fellowship and worship in the future at this very special church.

Don’t forget to come see all of us on Friday, July13, 2012 at 7 pm for the “Soaking in the  Holy Spirit Fountain  of  Fire and Healing.” at the Daily Transformation Ministry. Look for the links to their Facebook pages in my link section.

 

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